i miss hatena

as much as i got sick of hatena near the end...i miss it >.< i miss all my friends....i was a loser on hatena for a long time though xD i had a hatena for like 3 or 4 years but i didnt have any real friends until like my 3rd year. ugh. 

yeah im really bored. and no one reads these. so since im the only on who reads these, i'll rant about this guy i really really really really like. i've only known him for about 2 weeks. we met at camp. he's been going to the exact same week as me for like 5 years (which is creepy because i change weeks a lot), but this is the first year i've noticed him. and i only noticed him because of my best friend. the guy is my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. so my best friend wanted to hang out with her boyfriend a lot, and her boyfriend's best friend hung out with him a lot, so we hung out a lot. 

at the beginning of the week, it was fine, we were friends (i guess) and we put up with each other for each of our best friend's sake. im saying this because i noticed that i liked him just a moment too late. if only id noticed sooner. one day we even played foosball together. i was playing my friend and he joined in on my side, and my friend's boyfriend joined in on her side. and my other best friend (i havent said anything about her at all yet) played scorekeeper xD i didnt even feel anything though. i wish i had becuase now it;s too late. i like him. a lot. i might even....love him????

his name is phil. ahhhhhhhh.......hes really really cute. i mean, hes younger than me. im a freshman this year, he's an 8th grader. but hes exactly 4 months and 15 days younger than me. hehe yeah i did the exact math. he's really boyish. like thats my type ya feel me? hes kinda immature, but in a really cute way. and he can be really sweet and mature when he wants to. he always knows how to make me smile. like he made my morning the other day just by telling me good morning on facebook. and at camp he told me i was skinny c: i dont know if he realizes how much that means to a girl. he also said good night to me once. *sigh* 

i feel like between my friend's boyfriend and phil i would be getting the better deal. hes cute, sweet, and funny. the only problem: i didnt get his number. were friends on facebook, but he told me he lost his phone, so it would be awkward for me to ask for his number. plus, the guy usually makes the first move.

my only hope is the fall retreat at camp. apparently he didnt know about it, but i subtly brought it up in front of him, so he knows. he even asked me if i should come. im probably going to ask him on facebook in a couple months to see if hes going. of he could come to the spring retreat...but idk. not as many people come to that. if not, ill have to wait until next summer. hopefully, he'll volunteer with me next year. 

ah thats it with my rant..its just...hes so....perfect.